Day 48 – parts of this day makes me angry at john:(!

In the bedroom, Josie tells Jo and Corin that John James told her “I just love everything about you.” Josie says it was horrible when it was unrequited and that she is worried that she’s come across as a “jealous, desperado, minge b****”. Jo says that’s not in her character and that everyone has the potential to feel the same way Josie felt.

In the kitchen John James asks Josie if she wants to permanently swap sides of the bed. Josie says she doesn’t mind, and that she only moved because she wanted to let John James be closer to JJ. “It’s good you had a bit of male bonding, you enjoyed yourself last night!” John James says he just doesn’t want to fence himself off, only spending time with JJ and Josie. Josie “as long as you’re enjoying yourself who cares.” John James and Josie hug and stay very close to each other. John James says he wouldn’t give up what the two of them have for anything.

Josie and John James are in bed together. Under the covers, Josie kisses John James on the cheeck. She asks for a kiss back, and he gives her one.

In bed, Josie says to John James that she fancies him but she knows he just cares about her and thats there is a diffrence and does he want to swop beds and he said No.

“I feel 100% comfortable around you and I don’t feel awkward at all.” John James and Josie talk inaudibly, and Josie then says that she doesn’t want to be compared to Caoimhe and Shabby, and that John James should now sleep in Mario’s bed. John James becomes upset and asks why Josie is being like that. He says he wants to sleep with Josie, Josie says she does not want to sleep with him anymore. Josie gets out of bed and leaves the bedroom. John James tells her not to walk out. Josie says she isn’t angry.

John James follows Josie in the kitchen and apologises to Josie and wants to talk to her.

He follows her to the bathroom where she goes into the toilet to wipe a tear and he wants to talk about it but she is clearly to upset to talk.
John James says he never meant to hurt her, and Josie says he hasn’t hurt her, so why is he carrying on?

John James goes to the bedroom to talk to JJ. He explains the situation and JJ understands. JJ says that John James just wanted to find out how Josie feels about the situation. JJ says he’s here if John James wants to talk about the situation. John James says he doesn’t want to “cuddle up to Josie at night” if it’s going to be leading her on.

John James walks out into the garden, and Josie is by the smoking area. She asks if he’s alright. Without a word John James goes to the door and breaks open the fire exit. Josie asks what he’s doing. Various housemates gather at the door and Dave and JJ go after John James.

Backstage, Dave and JJ talk to John James. John James says he’s going. JJ tells John James he can’t leave it like this. In the garden, Josie says “if he leaves I’ll go ballistic and never speak to him again.” John James says to JJ “please understand”. JJ says he can’t understand. In the garden, Josie says that John James is “making a show of me”.

John James speaks to the producers who tell him to take a minute. John James says he feels like s***. He says “I love her and don’t want to hurt anyone or make them seem stupid” And that he doesnt want anything to start in the house and thinks it would be better if he left. The producers recommend John James take a breath and walk back to the diary room.

John James comes back to the house. The other HM applaud when he returns. John James walks straight to the diary room. Josie asks John James not to go to the diary room. Josie saying “please stop it now, please. Dont say anything ... We’re mates you wont ever leave me here would you.”
he reply's i dont want to,

In the living room, Josie and John James laugh a bit, John say's im Not moveing beds and you arnt either josie says right ok and they agree not to say another word about their situation.

Back in the bedroom John James apologises to Josie for everything. Josie says she feels stupid and John James says she has nothing to feel stupid about. Josie “I look like an idiot John, especially now” and John James says he has been selfish. Josie says she knows what John James is going to say next, so there’s no need to say it. John James begins to cry and reaches for his handkerchief. “You’ve still got your hanky, can you stop all the crying now please?” The pair hide under the duvet and it sounds like they share a kiss.

Some of the girls are in the bathroom with Josie talking about John James. Corin says that because John James is so touchy feely with Josie she is getting mixed messages. She says that looking at the two of them it seems like they both feel the same way, but then they say different things.

Josie tells Corin and Jo ' it looks like i just told him i fancy him and he just ran out of the fire exit.'